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To love someone is nothing, to be loved by someone is something,but to be loved by the one you love is everything.I saw someone had said this and i thought it pretty much sums everything up appropiately.

 

College and um…revelations

College

I am finally moved in at my dorm in Ann Arbor.  I love my dorm.  It is sweet and I have a new Bose sound dock to play my music.  Could it get any better?  Well, my roommate did get a 32” LCD HDTV.  I’m not fully prepared for what is to come, but that is the way I like it.  It makes life more interesting.  We’ll just go with that for now.  I will see how much I love college after classes start.  For now, however, I love it.

Revelations

• I need more friends.  Currently I have only 7ish friends.  ‘ish’  because my one friend’s little brother is more like a little brother to me than a friend pretty much.  I have like four friends in Ann Arbor.  That is real cool but I can’t let it stop me from completely putting myself out there in order to make friends.
• If I do make friends, they need to be nice.  I’m done with people with attitudes who are mean.
• I need to work on getting a girlfriend within the first month.  Better start talking to girls.
• I’m going to be taking school seriously.
• I’m going to miss my sister-mom.  She should totally not be at U of M Dearborn.  She understands me and my thought process, and she has been there for me when I need her.  She gives good advice as well.
• My family was my rock.  The one constant thing in my life in which I could turn to since I don’t have really close friends.
• I like animal crackers.
• I’m finally a stable individual who is healthy emotionally.  I’m happy to be living.  Life is short and I’m not letting trivial things put me down.  I have my family and sanity no matter what.  I don’t need much more, though I want more.
• Finding happiness in little things is the best.
• I can’t think of anything else.

life…….is difficult….it’s only in my head i think though

It doesn’t make any sense to do this in bullet format but I like bullets.  Therefore, I am going to proceed with my thoughts and some events in my life via bullet format.  Let the fun commence.

• Just before beginning to write this I finally comandeered the alcohol my sister admitted to me that she had stolen from our parents.  She had admitted to me that she took it when I was recovering from a night of drinking outside of the house.  I was going to let her keep it but after thinking I’ve decided she does not need to be drinking AT ALL.  In addition, I told her to take it off of her dresser and she did not listen so her dumbass was going to get caught, seeing as my mom is definitely nosy. 
• I continued my streak of going outside and walking/jogging shirtless whenever it rains.  I seem to like the rain a lot.  Nowadays it’s the only thing that makes me feel like I’m alive.
• I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t have any real friends except for one old friend and of course my ipod.
• I don’t trust anyone anymore.
• I’m horny, but I’ve always been extremely horny.  I just don’t let the females see it and lol that they think I’m innocent.  One second in my head and they would never think that again.
• College….I’m actually getting kind of excited…I can finally reinvent myself and do some things differently.
• I’m single again…..BOO
• College=girls…yes this is why I am excited
• I need to stop depression drinking….it isn’t smart at all
• i’ve noticed everyone i have thought was my friend in the past has never let me get close to them
• i need to increase my attractiveness
• i need an attractive girl to makeout with me soon before i go crazy
• I have to do various things before I go to college….oh yah
• i went to see the first showtime of The Dark Knight when it came out
• I’ve loved batman since i was a little kid
• I went to the warped tour the same day i saw batman
• i got to shake the hand of the lead singer of Story of the Year
• i had a Story of the Year shirt but nothing to ask him to sign it with…..story of my life lol
• nobody calls me on my phone and i rarely get texts…i need to get rid of my cell phone
• i take 2 am jogs everyday now….it’s the best
• sometimes i walk for hours after jogging while listening to music
• i love the night more than the day
• i rather it be dark and stormy than sunny
• strange shit happens after 1am
• thought i saw a spaceship but hey im fuckin losing it as it is
• im listening to music as im writing this
• life was easier when i was unaware of everything and i lost this innocence far before others
• i dont believe in anything anymore
• ha ha lyrics from a song but they are true “without a sense of confidence im convinced that there is just too much pressure to take”

I’m finished with my nonsense for today.  HMMMMM i need to change the title of this thing….high on life…pffft…not anymore

I’ve Finally Done It……..Wow It Took Long Enough

Yeah so im almost eighteen….right?  Yes, right.  My birthday is March 16, 1990.  Sadly I was one of those lazy persons who didnt get their driver license when they turned sixteen.  I didn’t see the point in it.  There wasn’t any place i needed to get by car, and let’s just say not that many people want to hang out, so i dont need transportation generally.  Recently, however, my interest in finally getting my license has peaked.  I actually wanted it, and so i set out to get it.  Luckily, I have succeeded in obtaining my license.  In 2-3 weeks i will have my actual driving license with the picture.  Another good thing is that while i was getting my license, i also registered to vote.  I will be exercising my right to vote in the upcoming presidential election.  Yay for me.  I won’t be one of those citizens who complains about government, but doesn’t actively participate by voting.  I will use my constitutional right to try and elect the person with the best plan for the nation (policies, crap Iraq war, global warming, immigration, improving economy and such).  Hopefully Hilary Clinton doesnt win the democratic nomination or i might have to vote independent.  I just do not like her at all.  While it may seem like i should be happy that it is almost my birthday, i am not.  The magic of birthdays faded for me a long time ago.  This birthday seems like it could possibly be my worst yet.  Stupid birthday wishes never come true, and my birthday wish for this year seems  more unlikely to happen than all my previous wishes that didnt come true.  If my wish did come true, then it would be the happiest day of my life…..yes i said my life.  Oh yeah it also would be my best birthday yet too.  However, a friend has guessed exactly what my wish is…..darn her.  Does that mean that already my wish will not come true?  I don’t know how birthday wishes work though.  Hope it isn’t already deemed impossible.  I don’t plan to do anything on my birthday.  My mom asked what i wanted for dinner.  She would have said yes to whatever i wanted.  I said a protein bar.  You know they are packaged the same as candy bars but they taste well….not very good.  My mom got angry with me and said no ill just get you taco bell then (i like taco bell pretty much).  She also asked me if i wanted a cake and i said no.  She said she would get one and shove it in my face.  I was on the verge of falling to the ground in laughter.  She was pretty serious.  I will most likely spend the day in my room.  I’ll sleep and listen to music. 

What i’ve always known is most important to me

Ever since i was a  child i have strangely known what i want most in life.  This is not even the weirdest part.  The weirdest part is what it is i have known that i want most since i was a child.  The thing that i want most in life is to share my life with someone i love.  Life is too short to waste and love is what i deem as the key thing to happiness.  All the money in the world could not make me happy.  Money just can’t buy you love (as The Beatles have sang).  I want to be able to hold a girl in my arms and tell her how much i care about her.  I would kiss her on her forehead and tell her how beautiful she is.  We could lay next to each other on a warm night and stare at the stars or watch a beautiful suset together.  I want to hold a girls hand.  I want to tell a girl that i would do anything for her.  I would be the type of guy who actually listens because i care…..i really do.  All i want in life is to find someone who loves me.  If i have money too, then all the better, but i can do without the money. 

I’ve created a blog….oh wow

I’ve realized recently that im an individual who constantly has thoughts and emotions that occupy my head.  It has come to the point where im overwhelmed by my thoughts and emotions, and i need a venue to release them.  This is where wordpress seems to come to play.  I suddenly found it and it seems like a solution to the problem that has started to plague me.  Now i will start to reveal some of my deepest emotions and thoughts.  I can no longer keep them bottled up, plus it doesnt seem very healthy to do so.

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