sigh

I need to stop being so naive and optimistic when it comes to certain aspects of my life.  It is time to accept a more realistic approach.  All my endeavors so far have resulted in failures, though I am mostly to blame for this result.  It seems I am still struggling to accept the reality of the situation.  I am still confused that I would have this much trouble.

wow

what am i doing? My actions are illogical, which goes against my very nature. Well, I do many illogical things but not when it comes to important parts of my life, which I believe I should handle with caution and responsibility. I suppose I really needed to fulfill a certain need of mine. I need to work on improving my self control in certain areas.

¿Por qué quiero encontrar el amor?

Yo no sé.  Voy a renunciar a mi búsqueda.  ¿Dónde está la mujer de mis sueños?  Ella necesite encontrarme
porque ahora yo no busco para ella.  Yo he pierdo mucho tiempo por buscar para ella.

silly steven no girls like you

sad truth….another bad memory to add to the book….well i forgot which volume im on

AHHHH!!!!

delted  lol it was stupid to begin with

I JUST DONT KNOW

There was this girl on my floor that I liked, but I did not go as far to ask her out on a date.  I do not even think of her anymore nor do i care lol

Why did I not ask her and why is she gone from my thoughts?………………..well because life had to throw something completely random at me

A girl I have always liked but always tried hard to not really feel anything and keep the feelings i knew would just increase given her awesomeness shut up and closed away because well she is out of my league lol ……………..well something very unexpected happened……she um said some things and well popped into my life sorta
It is not as perfect as it seems…………….im happy but scared and very wary of what might happen
the situation is not al that great given some things which i will not disclose
if only it would work out….then my best friend would be ironically correct all these years lmao….and it would be good

Hmmmmm seems like some things are ocurring again lol  Most of this blog was stupid though.  I am back to myself and my cold hard logic (more like cold ass black hole where my heart should be lol).

im jus thinkin right now

I’m a stranger that no one can see

A stranger to every part of me

I’m a stranger to all that I know

A stranger, everywhere I go

Sometimes I don’t hate but I want to
Blinded by the reason I found you
It’s just a feeling I get when I’m around you
Can you relate to what I’m going through?
How much farther will I get?
Man, I feel like such a moving target
how many times will I slip before I find it?
Until then I guess I’ll just keep climbing

It’s so hard when you’re a loser
Heaven help us find our way
And it’s so hard cause I’m a loser
Heaven help me feel okay

 

life is random/crazy

im confused lol
i need to get unconfused

Failure

I have only two friends in Ann Arbor, and both of these two friends were friends from high school.  I haven’t made any friends in college.  I fail at social life and life in general.  It seems i haven’t put forth a big enough effort to not be shy and an introvert.

Maybe i will recover, maybe lol

i am getting rid of any ignorant posts from the past.  YAY