College and um…revelations

College

I am finally moved in at my dorm in Ann Arbor.  I love my dorm.  It is sweet and I have a new Bose sound dock to play my music.  Could it get any better?  Well, my roommate did get a 32” LCD HDTV.  I’m not fully prepared for what is to come, but that is the way I like it.  It makes life more interesting.  We’ll just go with that for now.  I will see how much I love college after classes start.  For now, however, I love it.

Revelations

• I need more friends.  Currently I have only 7ish friends.  ‘ish’  because my one friend’s little brother is more like a little brother to me than a friend pretty much.  I have like four friends in Ann Arbor.  That is real cool but I can’t let it stop me from completely putting myself out there in order to make friends.
• If I do make friends, they need to be nice.  I’m done with people with attitudes who are mean.
• I need to work on getting a girlfriend within the first month.  Better start talking to girls.
• I’m going to be taking school seriously.
• I’m going to miss my sister-mom.  She should totally not be at U of M Dearborn.  She understands me and my thought process, and she has been there for me when I need her.  She gives good advice as well.
• My family was my rock.  The one constant thing in my life in which I could turn to since I don’t have really close friends.
• I like animal crackers.
• I’m finally a stable individual who is healthy emotionally.  I’m happy to be living.  Life is short and I’m not letting trivial things put me down.  I have my family and sanity no matter what.  I don’t need much more, though I want more.
• Finding happiness in little things is the best.
• I can’t think of anything else.

life…….is difficult….it’s only in my head i think though

It doesn’t make any sense to do this in bullet format but I like bullets.  Therefore, I am going to proceed with my thoughts and some events in my life via bullet format.  Let the fun commence.

• Just before beginning to write this I finally comandeered the alcohol my sister admitted to me that she had stolen from our parents.  She had admitted to me that she took it when I was recovering from a night of drinking outside of the house.  I was going to let her keep it but after thinking I’ve decided she does not need to be drinking AT ALL.  In addition, I told her to take it off of her dresser and she did not listen so her dumbass was going to get caught, seeing as my mom is definitely nosy. 
• I continued my streak of going outside and walking/jogging shirtless whenever it rains.  I seem to like the rain a lot.  Nowadays it’s the only thing that makes me feel like I’m alive.
• I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t have any real friends except for one old friend and of course my ipod.
• I don’t trust anyone anymore.
• I’m horny, but I’ve always been extremely horny.  I just don’t let the females see it and lol that they think I’m innocent.  One second in my head and they would never think that again.
• College….I’m actually getting kind of excited…I can finally reinvent myself and do some things differently.
• I’m single again…..BOO
• College=girls…yes this is why I am excited
• I need to stop depression drinking….it isn’t smart at all
• i’ve noticed everyone i have thought was my friend in the past has never let me get close to them
• i need to increase my attractiveness
• i need an attractive girl to makeout with me soon before i go crazy
• I have to do various things before I go to college….oh yah
• i went to see the first showtime of The Dark Knight when it came out
• I’ve loved batman since i was a little kid
• I went to the warped tour the same day i saw batman
• i got to shake the hand of the lead singer of Story of the Year
• i had a Story of the Year shirt but nothing to ask him to sign it with…..story of my life lol
• nobody calls me on my phone and i rarely get texts…i need to get rid of my cell phone
• i take 2 am jogs everyday now….it’s the best
• sometimes i walk for hours after jogging while listening to music
• i love the night more than the day
• i rather it be dark and stormy than sunny
• strange shit happens after 1am
• thought i saw a spaceship but hey im fuckin losing it as it is
• im listening to music as im writing this
• life was easier when i was unaware of everything and i lost this innocence far before others
• i dont believe in anything anymore
• ha ha lyrics from a song but they are true “without a sense of confidence im convinced that there is just too much pressure to take”

I’m finished with my nonsense for today.  HMMMMM i need to change the title of this thing….high on life…pffft…not anymore